Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Did you Miss Me or Just my money?

Well I am not for sure if anyone is still reading but I needed a breather and I feel better about poker than I have in a long time. I think I went through a grieving period after the WSOP. I guess like a postpartum, I built it up so much in my mind that there wasn't anyway I would be satisfied with the outcome until I stepped away and reflected. Strangely enough watching it on TV has made me realize what I accomplished, achieving a goal which was to play in the ME.

So lets catch up.


Still boss less and really enjoying it but now I am wondering why my company is making every effort not promote me. Not to sound ungrateful but if they hire someone else I will more than likely have to look elsewhere because I am at the point in my life where it is time to start making moves with retirement in sight. In order for me to retire with this company I have to promoted to the next level this time in order to get to the SR VP position when it comes open in 5-10 years.


Still suck at bankroll management (online), but I am doing better controlling my inner demons, specifically gambling. When I look at poker from a business perspective I find I have no problem maintaining and growing my BR. When I look at poker as a competitive "Game" I loose control and binge. I cant tell you how many times I have tilted my roll when some donk catches his two outer. I would tilt 4 or 5 buyins just trying to stack any SOB that dares to call my raises just because __________ (you fill in the blank with any excuse you want) Granted if you totally look at poker as a biz I would and have become bored with the game but I have found the challenge in trying to outsmart the game not outsmarting the players.

Live poker has been doing real well, I have won 2 of the last 3 Home Game Tourneys I have played in, had 4 out 5 winning sessions in 1/2 cash rings. The only problem is I just don't have the time and I wont commit that much time away from the family. Granted when I home at night I may have the laptop fired up but at least I am there and I can go in check on the boy if he is yelling out or I can watch BB8 with the Misses.

On side note I want my Banners Dammit!!!!

Until next time keep the demons at bay, play with your head not your heart, but if you are going to play do it with heart.


lj said...

yay a post! nice update, and good luck w/ job and poker.

Alan aka RecessRampage said...

Jeez, it's about time. I'm going through withdrawals for not seeing the "that's just wrong" posts. :)

Good to see you are back! Good luck!

Mike Maloney said...

Which one are you again?

Julius_Goat said...

Welcome back, you nutty-ass you.